Internalization, externalization

Internalization, externalization

I personally think that one of tne most significant things of the internalization process of having a different look, is that whenever you enter a social situation with a friend that knows you really well, you will know others will stare. As your friend will be so used to looking at your face, they will not know or make the link that people are staring at your different face sometimes. While you get the stares, you spend most of the time not looking at your face. My feeling is that the one with the difference will never not disconnect from the feeling of being stared at, whereas the people that are linked to that person will tend to forget over time because they are so used to seeing the ‘difference’ in the face, which to me is an amazing thing. 
At the end of the day, the person with the difference doesn’t have to look at him/herself in the mirror all day, we don’t see our face all day, whereas the people that we spent a lot of time with, they will see it much more than we do, and they might be much more used to it, in a contradictory strange way. We know the inner experience, they know the outer experience better maybe. To me it is a paradox of internalization versus externalization.